Heyy everyone!! How’s life? I’ve been busy studying for my exams and my sleeping schedule is a huge mess now Blogosphere is not a distraction like how I thought it was, it’s like a little break after every hour of studies. Writing and reading blog posts is actually calming and makes my stress fade a bit. Anyways, lately I’ve been seeing this moodboard thingy here so I thought it would be a great idea if I did one to reflect my mood. Since we’re in the middle of the month already, I’ll make a mood board for my music playlist starting from next month.
Now let’s get into the post!
+my first ever mood board+
so I don’t know what a mood board should contain but anyways I made this one to reflect my current mood. I’m so into music right now and in studies plus I love to include a little motivational word everywhere.
I look forward to post mood boards for every month and maybe my bujo setup ❤
Heyy everyone!!! I disappeared without telling y’all, my exam season approached quickly and I didn’t have enough time to react to it. I should organize my blogs cause I don’t wanna post previous month recap in the middle of the other month. By the way, I liked using the word recap more than wrapper so I’ll be using this from now onwards. Before starting, I’d like to thank Bayance for inspiring me the idea of a monthly wrapper. I couldn’t link her blog in the previous post because of some error.
Now let’s hop into this post!!
Since December is the last month before winter break, we usually have events before school closes. We had annual day on 13th and it is conducted every alternative year (mostly even-numbered years). So it’s all about stage performances, dances, skits and anything similar. It had been a tradition in our school since the very first and I always enjoyed watching it. But this year I made an attempt to participate and that was literally unbelievable (until now). It was the first time I ever participated in stage performances, let alone a dance. So it was like every class performs on stage and our dance was a zumba type like 3 in 1 dance with 3 different songs. We had practiced days before the performance and that was super stressful since I wasn’t good at dancing (plus my first time duhh). I wanted to quit since I felt I was a burden but well I made an attempt to practice and I can say that I was doing good. When it was annual day, I was literally scared. I even asked ny parents not to attend since I’ll be even more anxious (but they attended anyways, being supportive as always😁). But there was some issues when we were about to perform. I’m not gonna put on all details but well our dance was threatened to be cancelled and that made things even worst. I was already nervous plus this thing coming up.. I was done. So our performance was delayed because of that issue and we had to wait in a classroom for a long time but the worst thing was that most of my classmates were crying. For me, my eyes were literally filled with tears and if I blinked, my tears would flow non stop so I choose of hold on. But when I hugged one of my classmates to comfort, I tried to hold my tears and that was hard. I didn’t wanna cry in front of my classmates, I mean I never cried in front of them anyways and I didn’t want to. But when my best friends entered, I told them everything and started crying heavily. So now it was like everyone is crying and when I hug anyone I’ll cry even more (man I’m literally laughing while writing this😂) I was so nervous about the dance and now scared about our performance being cancelled. Later on, after many discussions, our performance was confirmed and I can’t help but laugh. It was insane. Now, when I think about it, I find it funny and I always ask my self: why did I even cry?
Anyways the dance went well, except the part when I FORGOT some steps and moved my left hand instead of my right one. Oh God! that is so embarrassing if you only saw the video!! Everyone, students and parents, saw me plus it got recorded and the DVDs would be out soon. Ughhh. But this was my first and last performance on stage, I sure am not participating again. I had to be the odd one with hijab on but still I would never remove it 🙂 and not to mention that that was the first time I kept make up even if it’s just foundation and lipstick (dark lipstick, thanks to my best friend) I couldn’t bear it for a long time. It was one of the greatest experience and I know it won’t be repeated but it made me learn more about myself… I always fail on stage 😂
Other than that, we had some vacation classes which I skipped mostly. I know have to keep up and that’s actually so much but I couldn’t pull my self to go to school in winter duh?! I actually attended 2 days out of 6 xD
December was important ever since the second day. One, because it was my little sister birthday. Two, it was UAE’s national (I somewhat consider it as my home) and even though I’m not an emirati citizen yet being a part of this country is something to be proud of. I planned to go out on that day but since it was sister’s birthday I chose to stay at home to celebrate it with my family and her friends. WoW!! What a great sister I am, aye? 😂. But actually I did that cause I’m pretty sure the streets were full of traffic and I might return to home late at night and I don’t like that. Anyways, is was one hell of a party, I enjoyed staying around her crazy friends and I realized that I enjoy being around youngsters.
Good years by Zayn
I’m so addicted to this song and I don’t even know why. I keep singing it all the time and I’m sure my little sister is annoyed by now xD
Usually, I don’t have a so-called favorite post buy honestly speaking, I enjoyed writing the ‘gift ideas’ post. It seems unusual and may be that’s why I liked it. I look forward to posting the same kind of posts in the near future (insha’allah)
Hey everyone and.. Happy New Year!! I hope this year will be filled with happiness and success. Going through my bujo, I found many quotes I’ve written down when I was feeling down. I think I felt so from october onwards when I disappeared from blogosphere. Plus, those quotes were written down on the end of september, october, november and december, which means I’ll be sharing only four quotes. When I wrote these quotes, it seemed deep for me and they described what I exactly felt at that time. Surprisingly, that was the first time I described what feel by writing it down so it means a lot to me to share it here.
Now have fun!!
“Listen, take a deep breath and believe in God, he won’t disappoint you!”
This was when school reopened after summer break and since I wasn’t ready for it.
“You might feel like you don’t fit in a society and even if that’s true maybe the problem is not you. Maybe it’s the people in that society who don’t know how to appreciate your talent. Maybe you’re just too good to be in such societies. You’re precious in many ways”
This was when I had many thoughts in mind. Talking about society is not like me, but I had this thoughts after reading some articles. In a way, I wanted to change some society, to make them appreciate everyone and not judge them.
“You might feel excluded, ignored, abandoned. But don’t even underestimate yourself. Just because you can’t speak up and express what’s inside your mind, doesn’t mean that they’re better than you. You have many amazing things in you that people can’t see because they don’t try to. If people don’t appreciate you, then maybe you should move on. Change wherever you are never change yourself for them, for their sake. You deserve to be with people who care about what you say, what you feel, people who would listen to you and hear you out all the time”
This was when I was so emotional about everything around me. I don’t even know why. I felt like I was being underestimated. I don’t express every single thing in my mind but I do have people to understand me. But sometimes I get the feeling that I’m alone and that’s what I actually felt throughout that month.
“There were things that changed me, made me who I am now.. if I continued to be like this then I might get better. Thanks 2018 for all the lessons and experiences. Hope 2019 be better, insha’allah”
This one was to recap 2018 and I even wrote two pages about what I did, what I achieved, what I’m proud of, what new stuffs I grew fond of and what change did I adapt. I was kinda emotional when I wrote that down on new year at 4:30 am. I felt like I shouldn’t delay it. With these words I ended 2018 and my journal as well.
I might post a blog or two next week before I disappear because of my exams. Till next time.. See ya!
No wayyyyy!! I can’t believe it!! 2018 is ending… it was a year full of twists and events and I’m not ready to say goodbye (′︿‵｡).
In this post, I’ll be talking about everything that happened this year. I literally started writing this post after posting my last post just in case I didn’t complete this one in time xD and that exactly what happened. I was supposed to post this yesterday.
Anyways now, let’s hop into the post with no more delay.
+ Blogging and Bujo
Joining the blogosphere must be the best thing I did this year and in my life. Blogging helped me improve my writing (obviously) helped, share my day and thoughts plus reading and discovering blogs is so much fun. I read blogs about people writing about their experiences like you know, the popular ones. But when I saw one of wordpress’ blogs, I was like “nah I won’t like it” but I still tried reading it and that’s when my I changed my mind. I mean, damn, blogging can be about anything.. plus it’s free (I didn’t even know that back then)
Learning about bloggers made be more into being an organised person, obviously, since you should have like a blogging schedule plus having to care about your own life. One thing mostly every blogger talks about is their bullet journal at first I was like what is that? But soon after that I made a real research on Pinterest and even downloaded many pics of bujo’s set up and layouts. At first I thought I’d use it for a month or so but it even surprised me that I can’t stay a day without writing in it or even looking at it.
I’ve never been so exciting about buying or even reading books. Like usually I would borrow books from my friends at school so I can return it anytime if I didn’t like the book. Despite me loving being in the bookstore I actually never bought a book for myself. I would gift books or even look at the covers without buying (weird right?). So, this year, I went out to the bookstore maybe to look at books (cause it’s fun and all) and then I found this book called Dorothy Must Die and I was like let’s try reading it. And did I love it? I obviously did!
I was never addicted to coffee until february I guess and that was because of my exams’ stress and all. From what I’ve heard I knew that coffee is supposed to make you feel energetic and awake. But coffee has an opposite effect on me, like I’m not even lying when I say that when I drink cofffee I actually feel sleepy but not tired (am I that weird?) Despite that, I actually love it, bitter or sweet, but I drink only iced coffee or cold cause I don’t wanna take the risk of burning my tongue 😂😂.
Books I’ve read:
+ Dorothy Must Die (Vol.1&2) by Danielle Payne
+ Paper towns by John Green
+ Renegades by Marissa Meyer
+ Wonder by R.J Placio
+ Wimpy kid: Meltdown (obviously)
Lmao after this post I think I should start posting some book reviews.
The post ended already…? Anyways, I didn’t add my new year’s resolution or wishlist since I think its better to make another post for them. So, I’m gonna post another blog post tomorrow insha’allah. Plus, I thought of changing my blog name cause sometimes I think that hiddenzzzzz doesn’t make sense but I’ll think about that later.
Yayyyyyy!!! It’s winter💙 Can you believe it?! Winter is so damn late here especially this year. I was dying for winter and now here it is!! Good thing is that winter is gonna last till mid-february and that means I’ll have more time to accomplish my bucket list. I’m not gonna get so excited about winter since our exams season is gonna start on January (´△｀) and believe me the stress is real. But anyways, I made a schedule already to enjoy and study (look at me being organized 😂 aye?)
So now, let’s hop into the blog post with no delays.
My Winter Bucket list 2018-19
Watch Christmas-themed movies
Make new coffee recipes
Make some new desserts
Visit the book store
Organize my study desk
Complete a painting
Start my new bujo setup for new year
Post some winter-themed blog posts
Visit the clothes store
Hangout on Christmas
Read a new book
Go for a barbeque night with my family
Make plans for new year
Complete at least 3 sketches
Re-watch some movies in my bed
Decorate my room
Do a winter photoshoot
Stay in bed most of the day
Listen to all One Direction, BTS, EXO songs
Make some handmade gifts
Make a wishlist for 2019
Go for a road trip
Make a special breakfast
Create an aim board for 2019
It’s been a really long time since I watched something without stress. Usually, I ignore everything and relax for a bit, but later on I’ll regret so this time I’m gonna relax for real. I’m in a damn mood to listen to all of one direction songs at once!!😁 … and here are the movies I’m willing to watch (or re-watch) in winter:
Spider Man movies (trying to bring back my childhood nostalgia)
Christmas Carol (winter mood duhh.. XD)
Nightmare before Christmas
Pursuit of happiness
Yep!! aaaand that’s all for now, don’t forget to keep up with my coming blog posts. Much love ⋆*:.✧
Heyyy everyone!!! I hope y’all are having a great day like me. This might be a little bit odd and late as well. But anyways, November was filled with many challenges and events that can’t be forgettable.
So now let’s hop into the post!!
Most events actually happened at school so I’ll be putting them all together. So anyways, this year was the first time I won two trophies for first place. Like usually, I’ll get one trophy for first place and the other trophy for a second/third place. But this year must be the happiest year for me. You must be wondering why I got those trophies? 😂 Well, I actually won in arabic poem recitation and essay writing and to be honest, all these are the stuffs I’m good at so this was like something great for me.
Another prize I got was from the sports side. This is also the first time I get two medals, though one of them was the one I’m actually proud of. I got two medals, one for basketball and the other for relay. Damn I’m so into team work aye?😂. Anyways, I’m proud of the relay one since I ran felt like Usian Bolt to pass the ballot to the last runner.
Not to mention that I learnt how to make new friends. I’m not a huge extrovert but I’m not an introvert as well.. so it seems that I’m in the middle of the two, an amprovert probably?!😂😂. Anyways, yeah I’m an amprovert. I talk about some topics with my seatmates, I crack jokes between classes but I try my best not to disturb my classmates. What surprised me is that I got closer to my seatmate not just in class, like we hang around together and talk about many stuffs.
Sharjah Book fair 2018
Mark my words: I’m not a bookworm. But damn I love reading some books😂♥️. Anyways, Sharjah book fair happens every year and last for a week or so and believe it or not every year there are over one million books (or that’s what I heard). So this year, I bought some books which I always wanted to buy:
Wonder by R.J.
Wimpy kid: Meltdown
The girl from the other side vol.5 (manga)
Death note 13 guide (manga)
The color for the sky is so so so beautiful
I tried my best to capture the moon
I love the clouds here
This is my favorite one
I tried capturing this with different angles
It rained, at last
I’m not exaggerating though. It doesn’t rain a lot here, I mean in UAE since it’s a desert. But when it rains, its something that’s gonna last for two days at least and that’s exactly what happened. And guess what? We got a holiday from school and I guess it’s a coincidence since I didn’t even wanted to go to school on that day since I wasn’t in a mood. Like, who goes to school when it rains with thunders?
My favorite song on november which I got addicted to was: Freak Penne 😂. Now don’t make fun of me, okay? Even though this song got released on September but I grew addicted to it lately. Not just that, it’s an Indian song and I don’t mean to say I don’t that Indian songs sucks, its just that I don’t listen to them much since they’re all from movies. But well, this one is a special one with a western touch so it deserves all my love😂
Renegades by Marissa Meyer. As I said earlier I love reading some books. But by looking at it’s thickness, the first thing in my mind was: this might not be my type. But guess what? I LOVE IT! I started reading it on the beginning of November and ended the book in a week. And that’s unusual for me since I’m a slow-reader but this book was something else. It was so interesting and exciting book, it gave the same feels as hunger games and that’s the best thing. I highly recommend it. And you what? The sequel came up already on November, I guess. Damn I’m gonna get as soon as possible😍
Madagascar 3. I keep rewatching it and it surprisingly gets better everytime, especially the part when they sing fireworks by Katie Perry. The best thing is, I knew now when the song is gonna play and I start singing along😂
Favorite food/ cravings:
Kinder chocolate with cereals + kiwi&lime juice.
Honestly, I don’t now what made me love kinder with cereals all of a sudden, but God it’s so good and I love it.
Complete all the 3 tag post which are pending
Make at least 5 posts
Try making a new dessert
Make a study schedule
Watch 3 Christmas movies
Post at least two videos on YouTube
I always hesitate when thinking about YouTube, I don’t know if I should keep posting videos over there since I don’t know what to post anyways😂. It would make me happy if y’all can take a look at my only video
And that’s all for the wrapper. I hope you guys enjoyed and don’t forget to keep up with my coming blogs. Much love.
Hey everyone!!! And welcome back! I know it’s been a really looooong time since I posted or (even written) a blog post. But before getting into this post, I’d like to say that there’s a really serious reason behind me disappearing from the blogosphere. And that reason is what this blog is talking about. I hope you guys can stay up till the end of this blog so you could understand me a lot more better.
Being a 15-year-old girl, a high school student and a girl who can understand and feel everything around her. I have many stuffs spinning in my head, and it’s hard to deal with every single one. Day by day, I’ve realized that I’m not the same anymore cause obviously we change, all of us do, sooner or later. I’ve realized that I don’t have enough time to think about what’s bothering me. Not just that, I don’t even have enough time to do my homeworks, chores and even blogs. I tried to get back to blogging from a long, long time, trust me. But, there were many errors going on in wordpress that stopped me from uploading my blog posts and that annoyed me. Like, literally imagine writing a blog for days and when you try to upload it, it gets deleted immediately. Despite that, I tried to be active around here, so people won’t think I’m dead. But sometimes, it seems that there’s something that stops me from staying around the blogosphere. I tried to stick around all the time but I can’t. Not just blogosphere, I can’t be active in my other social media accounts, it’s like I can’t stand them anymore. Let’s say, when I open Instagram, I get bored easily and I don’t blame the posts in my feed. It’s like I don’t have patience anymore to like every pic, to comment, to read long captions. The same thing applies for twitter. Lately, I’ve been sticking around Pinterest. I find everything that might brighten my mood and makes me happier, like, quotes, jokes and many other stuffs I’ve been saving to my boards over there. Anyways, I’ve had many mood swings lately and believe me it’s not in my hands to control it. I get tired and bored quickly plus I often find myself getting away from people. Not because I hate them, but because I don’t feel like being around crowds or even talking to anyone. I found myself wanting to alone for a little while. I found myself staying alone in my room with earphones on, I’ll either be writing something or drawing to keep myself away from the world’s noises. I keep pushing people away from me and you might think it’s rude from my side but they understand me and I appreciate them. I don’t wanna say I’m depressed or something, cause I know very well that I’m not and depression is so much different than being sad. That’s one main point. So, I’ve finally came to a conclusion that maybe, just maybe, I’ve been changing and that’s why I started looking at the world in a different way, maybe a better way. But maybe what made me dislike that change was because I was.. scared. I don’t know what’s scary in it but we still get scared.
I know very well that I’m not the only who went through this change but I don’t know how did people reacted when their views and mindset of the world changed. I found myself wanting to stay in isolation, all by myself, listening to my own voice. But let me tell you how comforting that was. Being alone, thinking and dealing with what’s bothering you, listening to your thoughts without anyone interrupting you. That was nice for sometime.
And I think that’s all I’ve got to say. Thank you for reading this post and keeping up with posts. It means a lot to me to find people who wants to listen to my rants. I’ll be back to my regular posting again. Besides, winter is coming and I’m looking forward to my bucket list and the posts that might come up.
That’s all for now! Don’t forget to keep up with my coming blog posts. Much love!!