WoW! When did february end?
Hey there everyone!! How’s things goin’? Hope it’s all okayyy. It felt so long since I read any blog post in my feed. Did I miss something? I wanted to take a little break from blogging and well, many stuffs cause of my exam results, upcoming finals and hell of stuffs that’s been bugging for the last two weeks. I actually wanted to stay away from distractions to focus more and that’s exactly what I did. But well, since february ended already, I thought of posting my monthly recap ’cause there were a lot of events to rant about…
As you already knew, I had an exam during this month as well. I was so focused in my exams that it was kinda hard to be back to having fun again. Exams is just another thing to talk about and I was annoyed when people ask me stuff like: how was exam? how much do you expect? and stuff related since I just don’t like talking about how I did in my exam. This exam was one of the exams which I felt enthusiastic for, I felt that I was ready for it. But guess what? Our first exam was math and oh god the stress was real. Before the exam we were given our exam codes plus our exam seating arrangement. I don’t really care about the possibility of me being with which of my classmates or which class or with which all grades (since there are mixed grades in our exam hall) The moment I took my code, I was asked to go to the exam hall which was a particular class and I was like: wait what? ’cause mann you won’t believe it, none of my classmates were with me?! I forgot to mention that we are arranged according to our roll number and it’s like boys and girls are together— which is a thing I’m not used to since boys and girls are separated duhh. I was the only girl in that class, like can you imagine? I was hella stressed as usual and now this?! I was stuck in a class filled with boys, seniors and juniors, and Oh God, if you only saw their faces they were like: why is this girl here? I bet all of them felt bad for me xD. I was so embarrassed and I even hoped that something was wrong so I would be put in a different class. Like Oh My God, I wasn’t comfortable not even a second. But thankfully, when I started writing my exam I totally forgot where I was and who’re all around me. The most awkward moment was entering the class, I would always be the last one to enter so walking from the door to my seat was a whole awkward journey. Our finals will have the same kind of system, I guess, which worries me a bit plus it’s gonna be held in another school, man I hope I don’t get stressed and mess up in the exam. We had some coaching classes for this whole week and I had to drag myself out of bed to get to attend them.
I can’t believe that school ended officially, like we don’t have classes anymore!! We only have our finals and then the new academic year is gonna start. Where did time go? This year was one of the stressful yet full of a lot of events, it was the real meaning of perfect.
We had a campfire organized by our school and it is really rare like the last time our school had it was 3-4 years ago (I was at 5th or 6th grade, maybe, but now I’m considered a senior). It was like at 15th, like directly after exams ended (plus after Valentine’s day XD) Anyways, I had many plans for the campfire but sadly I didn’t attend it cause my parents did not agree and I don’t know what reason they had in mind. I did regret it though, till now, I had to stay away from instagram so I won’t see my classmates’ story (my classmates had hella fun). We also had our class party last thursday, like we do every year (which was not exciting for me anymore) and again I wished attend it. God! why am I sick at the wrong time??
I was so concentrated on my exams and it felt weird to be back to blogging and relaxing. I mean even now, I’m not completely relaxed, I have my finals coming up next month (which starts today literally) and it’s gonna last for the whole month, as I said earlier. My first exam starts next thursday, plus it’s math, my only weakness honestly. Confusion and hesitation make me doubt myself and I find it hard to concentrate. I hope this doesn’t happen during my finals or else I’ll be dead. Lately, I’ve got an urge to communicate and socialize with people more often since I was stuck at home mostly (except for school which I also skipped mostly so..) I didn’t meet any of my best friends since january and voice chatting with them isn’t like meeting them. I don’t usually have free time but when I do I would draw something on my sketch book or write something on my bujo or listen to some music. I do use my social medias after my exam ended but then I don’t feel relaxed while using it (except for twitter and blogosphere). But there are times when I would just sit there and think of endless stuffs I don’t know from where they came from. It’s like those moments when you’re serious about something. That’s when I forget about all that’s bothering me and focus on that thing. And that’s one of the weirdest and deepest thing I experienced. Another thing I experienced was fever along with flu and that was really annoying. I usually don’t get sick often but the weather here was going up and down, from cold to warm and according to mom that’s the reason why fall ill (can’t agree more). I hate fever, my eyes were watering the whole day and I was getting all the way dizzy. When I was a little better, I tried studying math which made my condition worst so I took a nap but my headache started again when I woke up. I couldn’t do anything!! But alhamdulilah, after taking my antibiotics, I was better and here I am writing this blog post.
+ Who do you love by The Chainsmokers ft. 5sos
I seriously love this song it’s just perfecttt.
+ Sign of the times by Harry Styles
+ Ever since new York by Harry Styles
As I said in my last monthly recap, I just started listening to Harry’s songs and I even added these two songs into my february’s playlist and currently they’re my favorites. I was just so damn addicted to them.
+ I don’t mind by Zayn
I can add the whole album if I would but there are some songs which I didn’t like completely and it takes times to like some songs so till then this was my favorite for this month.
I would love to write one whole post about this movie cause it touched my heart and I would add it to my favorites. After a little research, I found that it has a second movie (which I believe is not as good as this one) But here is a little summary I found:
After U.S. Marine Kyle Wincott is killed in Afghanistan, Max, his highly trained service dog, is too traumatized to remain in service. Back in the U.S, Kyle’s family adopts the dog, but teenage brother Justin has problems of his own and doesn’t want the animal. However, Max may be Justin’s only chance to learn what really happened to his brother. With the help of a dog-savvy friend, Justin and Max begin to bond, and set out to unravel the mystery of Kyle’s death.
+ Butter cookiesssss
The lyrics of Sign of the times by Harry Styles hit me hard and it had such a deep meaning and I even found myself relating to it.
- Score high marks in my finals
I won’t have time for anything else so—🤷
- Score high marks in the current exam✔️ — I failed in math (ouchh) but scored an average mark in other subjects (yussssss)
- Post at least 3 posts✔️
- Make a schedule for finals✔️
- Study every chapter before March✔️
I achieved all the goals!! But there were just four of them 😂😂
I guess that’s all for the post!! So sad it’s gonna be my last post before I disappear for the whole month of march. This is one of the most important exam of my life and I want you guys to put me in your prayers!!
Till next time… Good bye!!